Feeling really upset..

Feeling really tired cause i haven slp..

EmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmo..


Haven sleep since last nite cause i wanted to make jelly for him, knowing that i can't wake up early, i stayed up the whole nite to dota till morning.. Recently dota spoilts my mood, either im nerding or im just anyhow playing.. Seriously i need to train more and WAKE UP!!

He was released early like 3pm? when im still at home searching for my hat.. He wanted me to tie 2 and wore a hat, i did.. though i gt to say i look childish ._. don't ask me why i did that anyway.. I didn't know either..

He took the train down to meet me halfway through the journey, sRy that u have to come down all this times, instead of me fetching u as i promise.. =( sRy..

Went down to Vivo again as there isn't any place we wanne go but just slack around.. Just walk around before settling down to rest and i fell aslp ._. and the wind is freaking COLD.. Nice weather though but i just hate to be cold...

Everything was sweet and nice until i spotted u doing certain things twice.. I didn't said a word cause im tired and u keep denied.. (Don't say don have i saw it with my own eyes)... It reminds me of Jason, the sadness the quarrel when we talk about this topic, i know ur diff from him but tat feeling came back again.. I hate it.. It may be a small matter at all but to me i SERIOUSLY FARKING DON LIKE.. I just hate my bf doing that.. Don't ask me why...

After we reach J.E Mrt station i told him to leave first giving some excuses cause i wanted to be alone.. Was thinking alot and i nearly cried but didn't, too tired for tears to flow..


For all that u did, i'm really happy and i really apperciate but i'm sRy i got to say, i still don't feel the secure, don't ask me why.. I dono..

Did u really love me that much liked u said?

Did u say things that you meant?

Did u promise me with only words?

Did u fall for me because i'm in love with u?

Doubts Doubts Doubts Doubts Doubts Doubts Doubts...

Yes i'm always emo and i'm sry but i just can't help it, all this things are messing with my mind since the day i loved u.... Sometimes i find it hard to talk to u about certain stuff since the day u became my bf, i really need to tink before i talk in case i said something hurtful though u always ensure me but im uncertain about ur heart.. Still thinking about her? I dono..

Falling too deep for u makes me really scared of losing u, i doesn't want to have another torture it hurts..

I NEED YOU

I LOVE YOU

I NEED YOU TO SHOWER ME WITH LOVE

I NEED UR ATTENTION

I NEED UR CARE

I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U

After talking to Boney i felt alot better, thanks again for making me feel better.. Sometimes i really rather u talk to him for me.. Perhaps like what u said i haven slp and im not thinking straight but at least i wrote all out, i feels alot better...

Will i be able to have a peaceful slp later? Doubt not.. I got no mood...

Ming Heng darling, no matter what happens i'll be the 1st there for u and i'll always love u since the day i fall for u..

Hopefully sher will feels better and some things be solve soon ( u know what i mean) and Lz, pls sleep more ok esp when ur sick now.. take good care.. <3 uE all..



I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U

With ♥ From Suzanna [9:27 PM]